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Peckish, Perplexed and Fully Clothed

25/5/2024

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My first time in San Francisco was a tale from Edgar Allan Poe. I spent the entire night trying to entice the household cats to sit on me (Poe was so poor he  tried to keep his ill wife warm using that method). It was only later I discovered Mark Twain’s wry observation that the coldest winter he’d ever known was a summer in San Francisco. Testify! This time I was more prepared. The trusty puffer jacket conveniently manifested in the middle aisle of Aldi just before my departure for the States. It was a great comfort as I waited in the icy wind  blowing up from Union Square for the tour bus that never arrived . No Muir Woods for me, then.

All was not lost 

Fortunately, Rashida had called me out on my punk posing. Who was I kidding? I’ve always been more hippie than punk. Of course , I went to City Lights Bookstore and gloried in the cultural history I’ve loved since my undergraduate days. Oh, the poet’s room. Oh the joy of small scale, personal, funky book shops. Shoutout to Rabble Books, Crow Books, New Editions that supply the same kind of soul nourishment to writers ✍️ and readers in my hometown. 
A couple of years back I amused myself by entitling a poem “Hiss” in a cryptic micro-homage to Ginsberg’s “Howl”. It was published in Verseville.www.verseville.org/liana-joy-christensen.html

Hiss
the aeolian harp unplucked, strings grow slack, wood warps those of us left
to occupy the faded glory of this low rent apartment
feeling small in such a high ceilinged space we shiver suspicion
of the wind that once howled through aureate orations
in this reverse alchemy gold dissolves, tin takes its place in our ears
our gaze turns away and unbidden our hands sign avert
to baroque and powerful ghosts whose mouths spill pearls and serpents
courting disaster we trust instead the cheap portent of fox tells all
so we need not see the rust smeared basins that once flowed with oracles
we stiffen our resolve, brush off the dust that sifts down from crumbling plaster
safer by far to placate the small gods of shabby chicanery
drown our dreams in entertainment death streaming graffiti clichés
poetry has left the building
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It left the building with me

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On the way back to my eyrie, I spoke briefly with Terry Williams who was standing in the boarded-up doorway of his burned out home. I said I was so sorry and asked if it was okay to take the following pictures. He gave his permission and went back to speaking with some neighbours. 
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In this city of poets, Terry Williams stood his ground with clear dignity, calling to mind Leonard Cohen’s lines

When hatred with his package comes
​you forbid delivery 

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Double Jeopardy

24/5/2024

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Four hours sleep. Four am arising. Meditated, then left the hotel in the darkness of 5.00 am to catch the bus (I’d done  a trial run in daylight the day before). Instant, albeit transient, intimacy with the bus driver: a big, cheerful, chatty black man whose shift was just about to end. No sleep for him: he was going to an event at his sixteen year old son’s school and had prepared his legendary pulled pork, per request of his son’s schoolmates. I suggested I might change my plans for the day and come with him, which elicited a belly laugh. The trip took ten minutes during which time we covered wills, families (he had four children, two boys, two girls, two left, two still at home). His wife was a legal secretary and they looked forward to paying off their mortgage in a few years, after which he’d love to retire to Costa Rica. I know his  grandmother was one of thirteen, who in her turn had eleven children. He knows I live in my husband’s grandmother’s home by the ocean. They had will problems. He knows I have two brothers and one of the enduring gifts of our life is that we did not have will problems! He was proud of himself for talking a friend out of becoming a cop, because “you know that George Floyd guy? [Oh, yes 😢] Well, it was not a great time to become a cop”. His friend had taken the advice and he was glad.  How vivid a few moments can be.

What I ate instead . . .

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Le dejeuner sur l’herbe may appear simple enough, but hear me out. The first time I came to the States I was paralysed by the sheer range of product choices in the supermarket and at Subways. Made me long for the Soviet-style simplicity of the old Action supermarket in Hilton. And as my friend Jenny will testify, I lasted two nanoseconds in Walmart. I made it past the door greeter when something like an anti-capitalist forcefield propelled me backwards and (to quote Monty Python) I bravely turned my tail and fled. So fast forward to yesterday when our rather regimented tour guide was very particular about being on time. We were dropped at a supermarket with a strictly limited schedule and told to buy food for the day. (In fairness, it was good advice to avoid queuing in the Park.) It felt like some kind of vanilla “Hunger Games” as I grabbed a basket and bolted round the aisles. Organic greens, Kerry Gold butter, fresh berries and cottage cheese, a peach, tomatoes, non-earwax cheese, organic ginger Kombucha. A modest victory for Australian tastes. I’d like to think I made Maggie Beer proud.

Don’t go chasing waterfalls 

My rustic ​picnic was within sight and sound of Yosemite Falls … at 1000 m  the second tallest fall in the world. So the first of my double jeopardies was the repeated refrain on loop in my brain: don’t go chasing waterfalls. Given that it is perhaps the single most important reason people travel to Yosemite, I was always going to defy the interdict. Plus, I particularly owe it to my niece Janice to enjoy them on her behalf as well as my own (she is a dedicated waterfall-chaser).
As an environmentalist I am compelled by the stories of John Muir and the Buffalo Soldiers who were the precursors of today’s National Park rangers. But I cannot allow that story to erase other people’s history. https://www.intermountainhistories.org/items/show/339
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I’m almost inclined to do nothing…

Given the impossibly compromised nature of everything, I found myself feeling more and more mutinous as I was herded from one photo opportunity to the next. All day I was thinking of a poem I misremembered as being by Lawrence Ferlinghetti. Turns out it was his fellow Beat poet, Gregory Corso. Although even as a starry-eyed undergraduate I would love to have possessed the power to permanently expunge the misogynistic final stanza of “Marriage”, I’ve always loved the rest of the poem, and the excerpt below captures in more exuberant tones my  growing desire to quietly defy what is expected of me.
​​“Niagara Falls! Hordes of us! Husbands! Wives! Flowers! Chocolates! 
All streaming into cozy hotels 
All going to do the same thing tonight 
The indifferent clerk he knowing what was going to happen 
The lobby zombies they knowing what 
The whistling elevator man he knowing 
The winking bellboy knowing 
Everybody knowing! I'd be almost inclined not to do anything! 
Stay up all night! Stare that hotel clerk in the eye! 
Screaming: I deny honeymoon! I deny honeymoon! 
running rampant into those almost climatic suites 
yelling Radio belly! Cat shovel! 
O I'd live in Niagara forever! in a dark cave beneath the Falls 
I'd sit there the Mad Honeymooner devising ways to break marriages, a scourge of bigamy a saint of divorce-

The question remains​…

So, in the city  of Beat poets, is it more punk to visit or refrain from visiting the City Light Bookstore?
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May 22nd, 2024

22/5/2024

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The sun shone as it had to …

22/5/2024

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A slow day in this light-drenched room. I was glad of the chance to wash my hair, wash my clothes. Dancing by myself in tiny spaces conjured all the zoom classes of the year of the plague.
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Late in the day I ventured out in this seemingly mellow neighbourhood and walked straight by another person’s tragedy. Police, fire trucks, and the burnt hulk of a beautiful Victorian dwelling. Yellow tape. Bystanders and neighbours gathered in huddles. The juxtaposition was just as Auden (and the Old Masters) observed: incommensurable. It could have been a film set. It was not. The likelihood of it being a race-based hate crime is high. The history is ugly /missionlocal.org/2024/05/fire-chars-home-of-black-dog-walker-earlier-targeted-by-racist-threats/
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Now where was I?

21/5/2024

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Or for that matter where am I?  Unwritten tales from Cambodia are vivid in my mind’s eye. Time and fate twist and slip through my fingers. What follows cannot be a full account.

To begin with​

Twenty minutes to the airport: something to be said for a godawful o’clock departure. I fell through space and landed in an enchanted garden. Once there were butterflies.
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To begin again

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Larry is at Scott Street, S.F.

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I am at Scott Street, S.F. 

We’re the Fukari?

La carte blanche

La plus ca change 

Well, I’m always circling back to the wisdom of Ahjan Bram: the cup of tea in the jungle clearing never fails.
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An old habit from the days of lessons with Tessa at World’s End Studio: my journal entries begin with the date in Spanish. Time is neither linear, nor inexhaustible. To drive this new device is painstaking. I’m alone and it’s taken me hours. Once I’m caught up in the whirl, transmissions will be intermittent. But my love is a steady pulse. You can tune in to it anytime, anywhere.
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The Theory of Relativity

11/4/2024

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​On a small scrap of paper headed Guest House, Romchang, I jotted down the following:
 
            Bamboo train
            Ancient House
            Fruit Bats
            Bat Cave
            Banan Temple
            Battambang Statue
 
My travel companion had fallen and injured her knee. After seeing she was resting and safe, I thought I might engage a tangible tour guide to show me something of Battambang, a regional town in the Northwest. Like Mr Vanna’s carefully displayed assortment of books, each place gathers and presents that which might be tradeable. The special places, modest or magnificent, with which to ply the tourist trade. Commercial, certainly, yet not without dignity and honour. People must live. The list above comprised the local equivalent of the grand tour.
​Just for now, I want to write of Ms Bun Roeung’s Ancient House. I’d been struck by the style of Cambodian houses. The local equivalent of McMansions were two or three stories and featured long windows in a range of Monet shades. Chandeliers were in favour. Ostentatious, but not unattractive. Far more appealing, though, were the traditional houses built on simple lines usually on stilts. The older ones tended to be weathered timber, the newer ones in a delicious array of colours that were an antidote to the greige plague of my hometown. Like little jewel boxes. I was curious: was the stilt design protection against flooding or a form of air conditioning?

Khmer Arts and Crafts

​In a country whose crown jewel in Angkor Wat, the proud centre of the Khmer Empire which lasted for six centuries, the term ancient raises certain expectations. The tree-surrounded house I was delivered to was of human dimension – a pleasing timber construction that would meet the tenets of the Arts and Crafts ideal. Leaving my shoes at the bottom of a flight of concrete stairs I went up and was greeted by Ms Bun Roeung herself. A set of miniature models on a veranda table displayed the variants of classic Cambodian architecture. She answered my unspoken query by announcing that the design could serve as flood protection, temperature regulation, as well as protection from poisonous animals (I hadn’t thought of that!).
Moving inside to the large main room I was struck with the silkiness of the wide timber floorboards and the uncluttered placement of furniture. Again, it recalled the William Morris maxim “Have nothing in your house that you do not know to be useful or believe to be beautiful”. The beauty was unquestionable. The usefulness both immediately evident and more subtle. My attention was drawn to two mirrors: one large and one small. “Notice,” said Ms Roeung, “how they are placed so that you can observe who approaches the house, while remaining unobserved yourself”.  Noted.
 

Out of time

“The house was built in 1920,” she remarked. I was startled. The Ancient House was eight years younger than my own home in Fremantle. Time dilated. The Theory of Relativity 101. Three generations lived in Ms Roeung’s house, three in my own. I sometimes give a mock house tour for our guests, as three generations is time enough to accrue some interesting tales. And ghosts. It is my infinite, unearned good fortune that my ghosts are benign. 
​“The house belonged to my aunt, a Professor of Literature” (a calling not very distant from my own). So much relational information. She went on, “More than a hundred members of my family were killed by the Khmer Rouge. My aunt survived and chose to come back.” Time stopped. Viewed across the gulf of rupture, the term “ancient” took on a new meaning. There was the time before and the time after and an immeasurable gap between.
 

Sampeah

She left me alone, then, in that room. I don’t know what groups of visitors do at this point. Whisper? Look at the furniture or out the window? I looked at the family portraits hanging on one wall and did the only thing that I could think to do: brought my hands together in sampeah, the Cambodian gesture of greeting and respect.

The New Kitchen

​When I left the original part of the house, I was shown the kitchen, which was the only section that was new. It had been commandeered by the Khmer Rouge and used to supply local troops. A more compelling reason for remodelling than the hunger for novelty, tear-down-and-replace that plagues my street.
 
Downstairs, Ms Roeung seemed a little less remote (had I been observed, unobserved?) She asked me where I was from. When I answered “Australia” she replied “Queensland?” I hadn’t mentioned it, but I guess I wasn’t the first person to observe the similarities between the stilt design and the traditional Queenslander. Motes of commonality floating in the vast space-time continuum that separates her history and culture from my own. Occasionally, they catch the light.
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Intangible Tour Guides

5/4/2024

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There’s no tangible reason I should happen to be in a hotel less than a stone’s throw from a dance academy that warmly welcomed me. What are the odds?
 
Similarly, there was no particular reason to breakfast at Sister Srey’s (Sister Girl’s) Café ​beside the river in Siem Reap. Not the first time at any rate. Once having tasted the quality of the food and coffee returning several times was quite explicable. But there was something deeper that drew me back. On the first morning I noticed on one wall a painting detailing the major landmine sites across the world. A map of buried terror. On the wall directly opposite a poster with the image of a masked and caped animal: HeroRAT.

​I discovered that the café supported a project called Apopo. This non-profit was set up with the extremely ambitious, but not impossible, task of removing all landmines in Cambodia. Given that Cambodia has the dolorous distinction of being the most heavily land mined country in the world, even the thought of trying moved me to tears. A small postcard on the noticeboard alerted me to the possibility of visiting the project centre and I resolved to do so.

The books of life

​Just outside Sister Srey’s was a tiny stall where my travel companion and I purchased several carefully wrapped used books. Tok Vanna, the proprietor, had no hands. With the books came a photocopied leaflet that told Mr Vanna’s story, based on an interview with BBC journalist Kate McGeown. (I use the name from the leaflet not the interview.) When the landmine took his hands, the outlook was bleak. Suicide seemed the most viable option . . .  yet the man I met was  lively and cheerful. He sustained a livelihood and a family. It was a long way from the days of despair when a landmine exploded all hope of a good future.

What's left to see after Angkor Wat?

​Another whim of fate. The day I visited Angkor Wat, we drove via a different route back to Siem Reap. On a long stretch of country road I saw the sign for the Apopo Visitor Centre, and we stopped. Seeing firsthand how these African pouched rats are used in clearing landmines and returning land and peace to the communities was extraordinary. As was the respect and care verging on reverence the carers had for the animals. No rat has ever died in this work. Land that would otherwise take three days to clear can be declared safe in thirty minutes. The prospect of clearing Cambodia of landmines by 2025 suddenly seemed realistic. I wept.
How do you come back from hell? If Apopo shows the path writ large, Mr Vanna’s story is a map in miniature of the possibility of restoration. Without intangible guides, who amongst us could navigate the narrow and perilous  path back to hope?  
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Dance me to the end of love

21/3/2024

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​What does it mean to be a tourist in a land with a heritage of colonialism, riven with the aftereffects of genocide? Each person picks their own path, I guess. The hedonists might head for Pub Street in Siem Reap where the bass thumps and the alcohol flows. Innocent enough compared with the sex tourists seeking girls younger than their granddaughters, shamelessly cruising the redlight streets of Phnom Penh that run down to the Mekong.
 
Others with stronger nerves or perhaps greater indifference might tour the killing fields and the ordinary schoolhouse (S-21) that for four years was a central site of interrogation, torture, and murder during the time of the Khmer Rouge. Now renamed the Tuol Sleng Genocide Museum, it warehouses skulls and bones and images and infinite suffering. These are regular points of call for those who can face them. I could not.
 
I was not indifferent. Everywhere the legacy of colonialism and the ghosts of genocide and civil war were as ubiquitous as the broken pavement. So, too, was the strength and resilience of Khmer culture, springing up in the cracks left by painful history. History is too big, too overwhelming. I can only deal with specific encounters and what they reveal of suffering and of redemption.
 
My first evening in Cambodia I ate with friends at the ominously named Titanic, a restaurant on the banks of the river. The food was good, the cats wandered at will, and I was mesmerised by the dancer and musician who performed for the patrons. Such precise and elegant gestures: only achievable with genetic gifts and years of training. Dance calls to me, always, and I wondered if it might be possible to attend a workshop. Because . . . why not?
 
Some strange sprite of fate was at work. Back in my hotel room I did a little research. Directly across the narrow alley way in front of the hotel was an even tinier alley leading directly to the Champey Academy of Arts.

I presented myself the following morning and asked if it was possible to do a workshop. It was. I booked for the next day. Thus ensued an exhilarating and challenging hour where I joined the children, going through their warmups (my stiff, sixty-eight-year-old body notwithstanding).
Then, together with them, I learned the butterfly dance, the first one learned by all aspirants on that long journey. After going through the individual steps, we all performed it twice with live music from some traditional Khmer instruments: the roneatek (xylophone) and sampho (small double-headed barrel drum). Strong childhood memories of hundreds of ballet classes with a live pianist!
 
So much that was similar; so much that was worlds apart. There I was from a different culture, a vastly different age . . . and the extraordinary magic was that it simply did not matter. I had been garbed by the dance teacher in traditional style in preparation for class. As we went through the warmup, small hands would gently guide my foot or arm into the correct position. During the performance I had two wing-women: on one side a tiny child of not much more than seven; on the other a trans girl of maybe twelve or thirteen years. As the pattern of the dance shifted from side to side, I looked at one or the other and with no mutual language other than dance we worked together.

In that space and time difference dissolved. All were welcome.
Love was manifest.

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The Recycled Souls Debate

23/5/2022

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My mother’s maiden name was Elder. When I was a child we possessed a family treasure, a book written by one of our ancestors (I believe it was Inmates of My House and Garden). I took it to school to show off and managed to lose it.

After I grew up, I sought to atone for this dereliction. As a doctoral candidate I travelled to Wales in 1997 to attend the founding conference of UK ASLE (Association for the Study of Literature and the Environment) at Swansea. It occurred to me that I may be able to track down a copy of the lost book in the U.K., so I approached a friend and colleague who worked in the library at Murdoch University and asked how I might go about searching. 

We sat together while he typed her name into World Catalogue of Books and were stunned when the screen started scrolling showing multiple titles and multiple editions and translations into German and French. An unexpected treasure trove. 

The thing is I had grown up to be a writer of natural history stories, the author of Deadly Beautiful - Vanishing Killers of the Animal Kingdom, and the editor of the journal Landscope in its earliest years of publication..

I turned to my friend and said, “Well this certainly puts a new slant on the nature versus nurture debate.”

Knowing my writing, he did not miss a beat, replying, “Bugger that, what about the recycled souls debate?”.

I paid a pretty sum in London for her memoir. The price was high because it had a (rather patronising) introduction and epilogue by her nephew Sir Edmund Gosse, who had deigned to sign the title page.

He was the more famous personage. But it was her story that was priceless to me.
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The Cambridge Connection

Many decades later, my niece Isobel discovered a blog about Eliza Elder Brightwen  in  the Her Story series "exploring the stories of fascinating women in the University of Cambridge collections".  The work of Rosanna Evans, this account was indeed fascinating to us.

I've often thought my Great, Great Aunt would make a good subject for a PhD on the somewhat subservient position of women naturalists in the Victorian era. Imagine my delight, then, to find that she has not been relegated wholesale to the dustbin of history, but in fact has an album of her work residing in the Whipple Museum of the History of Science at Cambridge. An album that inspired Evans' blog post and related work. I contacted Rosanna Evans to share the family connection and thank her for her work.  A short email correspondence ensued, in which she told me:
"I recently gave a talk about her and the incredible album that the blog is about at the Whipple Museum of the History of Science, where the album is held. The talk was to a group of people with dementia and their partners. They really responded so well to the album as well as your Great Great aunt’s incredible life story (which is much more relatable than some of the more prominent scientists and natural historians of the time!)."
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She was also kind enough to share three of the images that accompanied her talk (two above, one below), the work of Eliza Elder Brightwen, courtesy of Rosanna Evans.
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Naturally, there will never be a conclusive answer to the "nature vs nurture", nor the "recycled souls" debates. That's what makes it so much fun to continue speculating. I've never been tempted to explore my ancestry via DNA sampling. But following the threads of a life spent devoted to writing and natural history? That's another story!
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The Artist's House

24/1/2022

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We met at the artist's house. My friend Frank had returned home to Western Australia, fleeing some drear and brutal employment.  In the easy ways of the seventies, he was sure of a welcome, friendship and new work. He brought with him a young woman, another shit-job refugee. And that's how Lynne, a pint-sized powerhouse, came into my life.  Forty-five years later, on Tuesday January 18, 2022, she departed this life, but our conversation continues. Partly in the shards and artefacts of creative exchange. Partly, in the evidence that her characteristic sense of mischief appears to be  inextinguishable. To wit, when I scanned the photographs I'd selected for this mosaic account of our lifelong friendship, the machine  scanned both sides. I'd not bothered to look at the back of the images, hadn't registered there was anything to read, but there on the screen in front of me were Lynne's words in her own handwriting. Surprised/not surprised.
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Lynne lived out West for a good few years. Her babies were born here. So many memories. Dinner parties. Veggie gardens. Music nights. I remember her wedding. The tough times. The discovery of her talent for pottery.

She was a country girl. And I never met a more hardworking woman. Strong. A survivor. Generous, too.

When she headed back east she left me with a gift: my first car. The Major. I didn't have a licence, but I began taking lessons with Frank.  My brother stapled some tin over the holes in the floor and I was off and running.


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The long and winding road

Over the ensuing years there were letters, the occasional photo of her growing boys, stories from the Pottery. Then, as often happens, we lost contact as our lives went in different directions. But among my treasured memorabilia I kept an enchanting doodle Lynne did years ago. It spoke to me so strongly that I mentioned it is one of my published short memoirs ("Conversation with Quin").  It proved to be a little elf map, promising her return. ​
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that leads to your door

Fast forward to 2015. So many changes. Such a different world. Facebook is a curse and a blessing of the 21st century. I can forgive it a lot, though, because of how precious those rare yet very real blessings are. In Darlington in 1977, I was composing  university assignments on a manual typewriter.  Close to forty years later, Lynne and I reconnected via social media.  Later that year I was planning my 60th and sent out event invites near and far. I was assuming those at a distance would like to be there "in spirit", so to speak.

Not so Lynne. Bugger me (nothing but the old Australianism will suffice), to my astonishment and delight Lynne told me she was going to attend in person. Thus ensued an epic journey that might have come straight from our shared youth in the seventies. Talk about back to the future.

Lynne and her mate (nicknamed "Tigger") drove an old Ford postal van converted to a camper all the way from the mid-north coast of New South Wales to my home in Fremantle. What's more, owing to the limitations of the van, they drove the entire way in third gear. Pure hippie gothic. And in a reprise of her own arrival all those years before, Lynne brought a stranger trusting there would be an open welcome, and so there was.  Tigger became a new friend. 

. . . owing to the limitations of the van,
they drove the entire way in third gear.

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​For some months, I had been admiring her latest artwork on line, and was deeply touched when she presented me with my birthday gift. 

From that time onward, we stayed in close contact, supporting each other's dreams and visions. Championing each other's integrity. I saw her once more out West when she came to care for her brother in his final illness. She stayed a few days with us in our new home by the sea. More visits were planned. She was hoping to get back West later this year.  We dreamed of  turning up on the East coast in our camper van to see Lynne's off-grid paradise with our own eyes. Alas, it was not meant to be.

These memories have a life of their own. Lynne with music, art, pottery; me with writing and dance. In a larger sense we have both lived in the artist's house all our lives.

Through strange back roads, through dreams, through the ongoing creative life, our conversation continues. 
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